The Unknown

Yes it is me again. I have not written in a very long time. Yes I have allot to say, but I will try not to rabble. In Feb. Scott and I made a trip to TX to see my mom. It was a short trip, but a good one. As we left the not knowing when I was going to get to see my mom again overwhelmed me. As we live so far apart from out parents and none of us are getting any younger, those not knowing set more and more on my heart. Having allot of regrets of not making more effort to spend more time with them. That other voice at times reminds me.. "well that works both ways".. yeah it does, but that does not make it right on my end. I could have been the one making more effort. All I can do now is ask for forgiveness and try to do better. After that we went to St. Louis to get Riley the grand dog. Ryan had allot of traveling to do plus she was studying for her orals. Which by the way she passed!! She now has her Masters and is a PHD candidate!! Go Ryan. The real unknow these last few months has been with Sam. So very proud of her! We will be heading out real soon to go watch her walk across that stage and get her college diploma!! Sam you have worked long and hard!! You go girl! The biggest unknowns with her is she is so in limbo.. not knowing where she is going to live, work or go to grad school. about the time we think we have some what of a plan, it goes hay wire again. She is stressed, we are stressed.. It has been a daily reminder that God has this. He has the perfect plan and just trying to stay within his plans at times are the hardest. Keeping the peace, and the trust that He still has this is getting harder and harder. But it is a reminder of how much we need Him every day, every moment. As I write this,we are still walking out the unknown. But when we lay down our heads tonight, we will lay them down with peace and knowing that we know God has this! We will one day soon look back on this and say, "why did we stress so much?". God is already saying that.. He is our peace, our provider, our beginning and our End. Take it form someone that has walked this. These extra gray hairs were put there as my God was laughing at me. Love my Father!