Well, here I am again. I have so much to say... but I will keep it short.
The 1st week of Nov. Scott and I went on a cruise. It was to celebrate our 25th wedding anniversary. We went with some friends of ours David and Paulette. It was the best time we have had in a long time. It forced us to shut down and relaxed and get some rest. We rested, laughed till we could not laugh any more and of course ate and ate. We really want to do this again.
At Thanksgiving we all met in St. Louis at Ryan's place. It was a great time. We slept on the floor but we did not care. We were together and that was all that mattered. We were so Thankful to have the whole family under one roof.
Sam got home first in Dec. for her Christmas break. Ryan came in just a couple of days before Christmas. But we were together. Sam had to go back a week early so she could work.. mom was sad.. but understood. Ryan left today for a detoured trip to FL for a 'special' meeting at NASA she was invited to. Then she will drive back here spend the night, pick up the rest of her stuff and Riley and head back to St. Louis.
The house is really quite today. I miss having all that life here. But you know it is ok. Our girls are turning out to be such wonderful women. I look and see and respect more in them every day. I could be selfish and make them miserable for not being home, or I could praise God for what He is doing in their lives. It is like watching a action pack movie.. one that you can't wait to see what happens next. I think I will keep watching and smiling, and praising God for the family he blessed me with. I had to make a decision a long time ago. It was the hardest one I think I had to make. God asked for my girls back. I remember telling Him, Lord they are yours... He asked again.. "are you willing to give them back to me.. no matter what?" I answered and said but God they are my children.. He replied So was my son Jesus, and I had to let him go and watch him die for you.. now are you willing to trust Me and give Me your girls back. After falling to the floor crying, I gave my girls back. He is doing a much better job than I could have without Him. He still allows me to love and be a mom.. but they are His.
I do not know when I will get to see them again, but I know they are in good hands.
Now that life has to get back to what we call 'normal'. I must stay focused on somethings this year. There are some projects, personal, spiritual and physical that have went untouched. It is time to finish some stuff up so we can get ready for the next phase of our lives. (Whatever that maybe).
I do not know what this year will bring. The only thing I do know for sure is what God is telling me and that is.. "it is not the year to be lukewarm". I must continue to die to self everyday and walk in whatever He needs me to do today.
Until next time. Watch what you are building in your life and what tools you are using to build with. Remember if you are using mud.. and the storm hits.. it will wash away. Don't use something that is not a sure thing.
Blessings to all
Shelly
2 comments:
Congrats on Ryan's college education. I hope she is self-sufficient with a job of her own now. Our son graduated in May and found a job in Iowa. He is now officially off our payrole.
Ryan is in grad school working on her PHD. She has been paying most of her own bills for a long time now and is very good at handling her money. The nice thing is she got a full ride plus they are paying her for going to school now. She is in St. Louis and working hard and keeping her eyes on Jesus the whole way. We are proud of both of our girls.
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